Dear Guy,
You told me this morning; it was a strange feeling you experienced upon
awakening.
Yesterday you finished the creation of Catherine’s website, and for the
first time in almost four years your day started without the whole project of
hers, of yours, of both of you on the menu.
You could tell the story of these last four years, but I was told that the
story is there on the website itself, and it does not need a separate chapter.
It’s online for as long Catherine’s son wants to keep the memory alive and as
you said: “I'm handing it over”.
Even if it’s not about you It contains also your personal story for almost
the last forty years.
Two weeks ago, you went for the first time since Catherine’s dead...
quote:
“Wow this sounds so harsh, that word, always searching for a softer
word, always trying to replace it by, deceased. But at the end it says what is
it is, although in my mind it is different. Patrick Modiano writes it so precisely
in his book, “The Ballerina”, ‘Neither the dancer nor Pierre belonged to the
past but to an eternal present.’ This is how I feel about the presence of
Catherine in my life. This is also how I feel about the other important people
who were crossing my life. This is the only way for me to survive.”
end of quote
... so, I said two weeks ago you took the liberty to go on your own to
Gent, without any accompaniment for the first time since Catherine’s ... You
have enjoyed walking in the busy streets of the centre and in the adjacent quit
ones that marked the area of your childhood. As an example of what your friend
Kees used to say, ‘coincidence does not exist’ and while exploring the
collection of a major bookshop you found between all the thick, fat, prize
winning books, a little gem... the above mentioned “The Ballerina”. This little jewel was your companion those two
last weeks, while finishing Catherine’s website. In all the characters you
could recognize Catherine, yourself and others in their respective roles. Highly
recommended for dance and ballet enthusiasts and professionals and for those
aching for a less harsh world compared to the chaotic times we are living in.
Those are your words, but I could easily make them mine seen our literary symbiotic relationship.
Time now for your own projects, enriched by the
experience of the last years. Finalizing the so called ‘Todos lo saben’ essay
for an imaginary movie script; The Taragon music pod/videocast, your writing
blogs and your aim to join third parties dance workshops with ‘quality of
movement’ support.
Above all, try to consider some quality time
with those other important people you met in all those past years, they deserve
your undivided attention. Also tell them you need their support and their
friendship and love, don’t be shy.
Yours always,
Guy.
