I just decided to.
Dear Guy,
Shall I call this letter an interim letter?
I do not like to interrupt processes but some
important occurrences can modify well prepared and planed ones. I think that
you, me, should reflect on what’s going on in your life now, at this very
moment, after you came back from Africa last January.
I know, you didn't want to go back to Europe while
at the same time you were satisfied about your so called ‘holidays’. Six weeks
of teaching and involvement in your project to create a vocational dance school
made it clear for you. You want to go there, you want to stay there and you
want to realize what you think is your last big-gest project in this lifetime.
Don’t you think it is never or it is always your last big project? Age has
nothing to do with it as age has everything to do with it. You have this idea
that if you don’t succeed in this one you will wake up the next morning twenty
years older or at least facing yourself in the mirror and being confronted with
your real, actual, age.
Yes, you have done and you are doing everything
to succeed but some uneasiness about some people in some situations are making
you mad, sad and that, apart from not feeling well physically, creates that discomfort.
Your dedication towards your job received a big blow, a deep bite, when you
have seen how some people with many times your salary are destroying a project
you always cherished. You came to a point where you are hating them so much
that it also slows down your recovery. You have to talk to people that you don’t
want to talk to. Normally you wouldn’t even have a glimpse on them but now in
the name of I don’t know what you speak to them and even smile at them.
Till yesterday.
You expressed, while eating your diet soup,
loud and clear to the few walls surrounding you: “I just decided to!” not “I
just decided” but “I just decided to”! All is in those two letters that make a
word, t and o, to! The next word, do, was not even necessary. There was no need
for ‘to do’.
This letter is not that intermediate!
This letter is the expression of a new start, a
new beginning. It explains what “I just decided to” means. It contains a clear
message to all those who think they can tell you whatsoever and do to you whatever
they want, who are thinking and even acting as they can humiliate you by
backstabbing you. You just decided to declare war to them, to fight them with
your words. You will accuse them and tell them they are rats, scabs, scurfs.
Because this is what they are.
It’s too
easy to handle the expression ‘Le Nouveau Beaujot est arrivé…’
Let’s
talk about Guy Two Point Zero. It’s new software the hard way. You will act as
a virus and malware. They better are warned. If they thought they could do
whatever they want with mister nice guy… they should read this letter before
acting.
Can I say you are threatening them? No, because
as you never threaten you will act impulsive, as you always did. That is what
kept you alive all those years. It’s your force and your weakness. It is you.
This letter is not interim.
This is letter is an accusation, a warning and
the accused know who they are. If some readers think it is written with hatred let
them be assured that the hate was gone while writing it.
Guy, while facing this campaign, let’s write
about different and better times and about people you love and who are loving
you.
This is what we should also decide to.
Sincerely yours.
Guy.
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